Have you ever felt like you’re dying?
Like you’re killing yourself to succeed?
It’s a feeling that makes you sick to your stomach,
it’s a feeling that will not heed
your incessant cries and pleas for it to stop
turning your mind into chaos
cutting deeply into your flesh
but the blood refuses to clot.
What do you do when your treachery effects your life?
When you want to do anything to stop living this double-strife?
But you know you can’t
’cause if you could you would.
You know what they say about
but they never mention what happens
when your life is meant in vain
when society is set up
for you to maintain
the violent roots that thrive from you losing
and constantly blaming yourself
for the fact that you’re bruising.
How to navigate this land of treachery!
There’s no sort of directory
no atlas of beginning again
we are bound to repeat this
to try and be free again.
But what does that really mean
to truly be free
when it’s at the hands of your own treachery?